There is a blind side to my heart
Un-satisfaction of this ever passing life
Highlight the stars for me
I can no longer find the way on my own
Escaping from the lies of this army I have
Fighting against myself to the death
A temporary fix to the truth
Time is washing away my place
Scream aloud and shake this feeling away
For 24 hours I am saved
My dreams fall fast, as I sleep
I pause in my steps
And feel the ground move under me
Forward moving motions make my feet shift
As I struggle not to exist

.Heimeko.

Im immature, but yet the people who sent me nasty personal messages are in the clear.  WTF.
Ah well who gives a dam rght. 
 

So.  Rustling is offically on Hiatus and I decided that since I took it down I am going to be posting 'Project Heimeko' on aboyslove.

Project Heimeko, is a emotional rollercoaster/semi-phsycological fantasy/romance/murderous deathness kind of story.  It is very personal to me and I hope that is enjoyed by anyone who reads it.

I will post the first half of chapter one sometime with in this week.  Look forward to it if you'd like.

On to other things.

i am having a great day because my artist friend is comming over to work on some sketches with me.  OUproject won't be done for some time.. probably a long time but to work on it when we have the time together lways puts me in a good mood.  Know i just need to get a dam scanner so I can share.  In time, in time.

Take care 'all.

I dont want to say that i am having a road block becasue im writting just fine, but i am having trouble developing my characters.. as a whole.. i guess you can say.

Takakashi :
  
          He is troubled.. not severly or anything just has daddy issues.  out of a 100% about 70% of him is this harder outershell.  not that he doesnt smile or have friends.. well he only has one real friend the others are just fake ppl.. it is just that.. so many ppl expect great things from him and really he just wants to be able to do what he wants.  Kinda like he is atotal fake, but then again not really because his toughness, or whatever you want to call it, is a big part of him.  stubborn.  i guess .  He has never had a real girlfriend.. they just want to date him becasue of his name... a powerful name, a name which he most of the time wishes he didnt have... 

         The other 30% of him is like a child, that not even his goof friend really knows about.. aside from seeing glimplses of it.  He is very casual, and laid back, outspoken for the most part but stutters like crazy when he is nervous.  But when it gets down to it.. he can hold his own.  he is like a kid I guess you can say.

 

Nagasaki:

         He is mysterous... very kind, knows what he wants but hesitant of taking it.  He acts as if he is hiding something from time to time and when he thinks someone is uncomfortable he will try to make them feel atease even it means to be rude.  He stands tall and as much as I want to say he is a pain in the ass he isnt.  stubborn about things, but will give in easily...if he really wants it.  


i know who my characters are.. how they talk and interact with eachother... the issue is I am not sure how their stubborn sides interact with eachother...they both hold a strong suit to them and when things go a stray who is the one to take it to far, and who is the one to go chasing after him regardless if he was right or wrong.

blah blah blah whatever... im done rambling.. maybe it might have even helped a bit to write it down... any input please feed.